Today is Monday. A new week.
I feel so much anxiety. It’s deep in my gut and up in my chest. It makes my breaths shallow and my heart pound. I wish that feeling would just disappear from my life. If only I could trust deep inside me that there is nothing to worry about.
It’s okay not to get everything done.
It’s okay to do a little bit each day.
It’s okay not to keep up with the lists and the calendar and the clock.
It’s okay to have dust and smudges.
It’s okay.
I’m okay.
I don’t have to do it all to be loved or lovable. I don’t have to be perfect to be accepted.
I could just live.
I could just enjoy my days.
One by one goes by and I need less Doing…more Being: being present in each moment. Eat and savor the food. Be with my daughter and truly connect with her. Enjoy what I have and skip over the imperfections- especially my own.
I could smile more and breathe more and take care of my body so my soul can thrive. Take my vitamins. Exercise. Stretch. Go to the beach. Be in Nature. That has to be a bigger part of my life so I can remember how insignificant my little world is compared to the big world out there.
The Sun.
The Clouds.
The Trees.
Everything keeps on going with or without me. In most of my roles I can be easily replaced. I don’t have to hold on so tight. I can let go. It doesn’t all depend on me.
I don’t have to do it all but I am the only wife my husband has and the only mother my daughter has.
I could simply focus on loving them well.
It’s all going to work out according to a bigger plan the Universe has for me. What if I surrendered?
It’s all going to be fine I suspect. It’s already more than fine. I have so much abundance in my life. I am so lucky. I must focus on that and replace the anxiety with gratitude.
Because even during my worst days, there is still so much to be thankful for.
What are you thankful for right now? Share in the comment section below.
What a blog! And I’m inspired. “Yes” you are truly bless. And blessed everyday with such wonderful person you have in you. Your knowledge, strength and your confidence, makes you strong to become such a fighter. Your roles can be replace, but the person you are unreplaceable. Everyone of us is unique and have our way to dealth with challenge. Your way is to make things happen possible and so you can simply enjoy life. Life, where you sorrounded with people who cares for you and loves you. And you don’t need to be perfect. Because they appreciate having you in their lives. And you know what, you are gonna be ok. I miss you my dear friend. Take it easy and keep your head up always. Hugs!